Like that song by BADBADNOTGOOD

Whether it’s planned or not, I travel alone some times. This time it’s in Japan. Two years ago it was Sevilla. Some years before then, it was a trip to Denmark where I exclusively slept on Flixbusses. It was a silly choice, but you can afford silly choices when you’re twenty-something. I’ve started traveling aloneContinue reading “Like that song by BADBADNOTGOOD”

Being nothing

There might be hundreds of worse jobs out there, but being an actor has a cruel, confronting element to it that always made me see it with a bit of pity. Imagine auditioning for the one who’ll be, more or less explicitly, the ugly and undesirable friend in the movie. Imagine how Harry Dean StantonContinue reading “Being nothing”

Playing games

As I empty the bathtub (at the moment my only option for showering), I keep my feet in the water. The residue of soap and body is easily washed away if I use them to move the water around. Similarly to electric toothbrushes that by fidgeting on my teeth manage to clean better than staticContinue reading “Playing games”

The curse of greatness

I have for part of my life dreamt of fame — I was a teenager, mentally not doing great, and thought rockstars were the coolest thing you could be. If born and raised in some other place than one where alcohol and promiscuity were the main occupation of people that age, I might have channeledContinue reading “The curse of greatness”

I lost my train of thought

Keep the feet on parallel tracks, I’ve heard yoga teachers say to help with balance in poses like lunges or allow more dignity to our legs in warrior one. Parallel tracks make movements consistent: one line, two directions. I can do that with my thoughts: let them move forward, from cause to consequence, or moveContinue reading “I lost my train of thought”

Seeing what is not there

I’ve always felt close to writers. Sometimes, when psychologists become the specialists of data and criteria, I feel closer to writers than to my own colleagues. Writers imagine what it is to inhabit worlds that don’t exist. They have perfected the ability to relate to what is not there — my bio on substack is:Continue reading “Seeing what is not there”

What’s behind the candles

On December 30th, 2020, exactly five years ago, inspired by an interview between Tlon and Paola Maugeri, I posted a candle, with this caption: “Lighting up torches to avoid waiting for sunrise”⁣[…]⁣As nature withdraws, our December becomes filled with lights, decorations, sweets, festivities, music and celebrations. ⁣⁣While on the one hand it’s important to fosterContinue reading “What’s behind the candles”

A room full of mirrors

It’s hard to meet someone more selfish than a person who suffers. Pain — a certain kind of pain — can transform us in the blindest to others, dressing every event around us as a personal attack, and everyone else as an enemy who’s there to hurt us. This explains (without excusing) the worst thingsContinue reading “A room full of mirrors”

Dot dot dot

December asks few words and gives even less. It’s cheap with images, thrifty with sounds, neutral in smells. I’m inhabited by a sense of quiet wait, patient suspension. Things will have time to happen, and underneath everything there’s an invisible fertility that has just slowed down but never stopped. If you pay close attention, youContinue reading “Dot dot dot”